I look at myself, and wonder why I'm posting this on a gw forum.
Then I realize it's more then just gw, it;'s a community of people. They just happen to play gw. After all I met one of my best friends on gw.
So. For the sake of convenience I will introduce myself, and her.
my name is Dewey, she is Kasey. This makes talking much easier.
So. I play gunbound. Alot less now, but still on occasion. About a year and a half ago, my friends and I had a LAN party. The after party of myself and 3 others. (Afte meaning us sitting around watching anime.)
"Hey Dewey, let's fire up some gunbound"
So I agree. And as any of you who have played it know, it's a room based system. We join a room, 6 of us total.
The host was afk, and as such we couldn't start. But Kasey and I talked, and eventualy swapped MSNs. we talked. and talked. and talked.
Fo about 12 hours. For a few days. She ws having poblems with he BF, I supported her, they boke up, I comfoereted her, she asked me out, I accepted.
that was on 9/23/06
Well we never got to meet. I just couldn't afford it at the time. So, it was doomed to be an internet relationship until I could get out there.
Everything was fine, for the longest time. The occasional argument, but those are always there.
then. She cheated on me. but, I was nice. I loved her, and she had told me. The fact that she told me said she cared. So I forgave her.
It wen on for a while then alot of drama hit. I ended up breaking up with her and us getting back together. Then about 3 days ago, she broke up with me.
It kinda sucked. The first day I was too numb to notice, and I had friends over. I just took it and rolled with the day. went to wok the next day, answered people retarded questions about U-verse troubleshooting. (Zomg, my tv no work! :( 'Turn it on?')
Anyway. the next day. I was alone. All by myself in my apartment. I broke down, I cried. I read noted from a few friends. then I cried because I had been ignoring my friends so much and I have the most wonderful fiends imo. (Anyone who puts up with me is great :P)
So I normally don't take breaking up too hard. I just go with it. And things turn out allright. Hand out with fiends. play games, anything to keep busy.
I dunno what it was about Kasey though. Just thinking about her makes me have to calm myself and think about other things.
I drove with a few friends to san marcos today to hang out with a friend. She's always good at cheering me up. I was actually feeling petty good, nothing really going on with me.
Then she decides to drag her bf with her. I guess seeing these two being all lovey-dovey made me go over that edge again. I broke down in the middle of her parking lot as they went in. I stayed back by the car. She noticed eventually and came and comforted me.
But seriously, I can't go on like this, my job is to deal with humanity and solve they're stupid TV and Internet problems. Any advice at all would be appreciated.